Email #2

Hey Mom, I have 2 30 minute email periods this is the first, I told the elders to wait till like 11:00 for the next one. Right when I get on Ill send you one right away ok! I am doing better, I did not ask for a blessing yet I just dont feel ready. I expressed a lot of concerns in the last few or couple letters I sent you, please know I was a little dramatic and I am doing better. I have prayed a lot for comfort and have received it! I find comfort in your letters to me! Thank you mom! I am sorry I have been terrible at writing but you have kept them coming left and right! You are the perfect example of Christlike love to me mom! I think about our date at Calls and I cant wait to come home in 2 years and we will go there again! I LOVE YOU MOM! Tell dad the kitty means a lot to me that he put in my scriptures, so does your card you put in my patriarchal blessing! I pray that youll know how to answer my letters and Im soo sorry for the stress I know I cause you guys! I have been praying a lot and asking for strength and help, sometimes I worry about my worthiness but if I can manage to get lost in the work I can set it aside, the struggle is just beginning to get lost in it. It is hard for my body and mind to be in the same spot at the same time. I miss waving bye to dad when he goes to afternoon work and I miss being at home with you and talking to you, I miss your voices and I wish I would have spent more time with my brothers before I left. I feel like a jerk for that and I miss you all! I got a sweet package from the Wises and a couple dear elders from Andy and Jordan Haramoto and all my family and bishop and grandma and Lyn. There might be a few more but Im trying to hurry and say what I need to say because 30 minutes of time on a mission is like the blink of an eye. I dont know what you guys think, but Im beginning to think that time is going way fast. I hope I am worthy to stay out here, I explain more of this reason in my letters I sent home. I sent 5 letters home yesterday to you all and am excited for you to get them. I got to go now. I will be back on. I love you mom!