13 months!

Hey mom, I think I will be writing to you and then I will have to go cause the missionaries are going to bbq and play soccer. When you're an elder in the capital there are tons of activities cause we are all close together here. But I thank you for the talk you sent and for your email also. I hope one day there will be more time. Lately I feel like there is never time like we always have to be running somewhere or doing something, sometimes I get bothered and just want to stop and relax but I know like Henry B Eyring said that when we get to that point we must push on and remember Christ and how he endured to the end.
We have like 2 investigators. a lady from Bolivia and a lady from Haiti. The lady from Bolivia is taking the lessons really well and yesterday was her 3rd week in church with us in a row too! The only problem is that she is living with a man and they're not married and she has a daughter with him but she has lots of problems with him and his mom and wants to leave and move to Spain but the law here makes it so that if she leaves the kid stays with the dad cause he won't give permission, and the lady from Haiti is her friend and she also has a baby and lives in the house of the kids dad but the dad already left them and moved to Brazil so she is able to be baptized just doesn't have as much desire as the lady from Bolivia. It's really stressfully tiring the whole situation and I was studying today looking for spiritual guidance on what to do and I studied all about obedience today. I learned and have already been told by the Lord many times that my success will be dependent on my obedience, on the mission and for the rest of my life and that this is a principle I need to apply to my life as well as to my mission. I am going to be better, your verification helps me remember what I need to do and for that I thank you very much mom! I sometimes struggle with the desire to keep pushing forward I just want to take a rest sometimes but I must keep going. I am just tired of working alllllll day and neeeeeeever having a baptism but for the least I know that it's dependent upon me. I feel like I work but I am not doing absolutely anything and I just wish I could have more success like some of the other elders. I know that it is all dependent on me though and my diligence and obedience more than anything the obedience! That is why the mission is beautiful cause it helps you to recognize that yes you can even in bad conditions that no one else could support but you. I want to make the necessary change but it's hard but I will still just have to do it. I need to quit complaining. for the less I don't complain to anyone but in my own head and in this email to you. I just want to make the best of my mission and feel like I am throwing it all away. like I am letting the Lord down cause I am unfocused. Through much prayer and work I know I will be able to understand. Thanks mom I love you and recognize that you have always been praying for me so that I can do it and be obedient!
love you mom mucho!
Elder Wikstrom :) :D